(ate me) [04 Jul 2005|12:20pm] for anyone in lee's chem class this summer.... does anyone remember what the procedure was for the lab?

(2 dicks |ate me) hm [05 Dec 2004|08:12pm] What do you do when you miss a friend, but know they dont miss you back, do you just live with the feeling or do you act on the feeling? so confused

(1 dicks |ate me) [30 Oct 2004|02:58pm] OH herer I go 1. jen Fucking Judah its been 2 fucking years bitch! And not think its goonna be over this quick cause we have some amazing fucking years coming up so be ready! HAHAHA Love you 2. Im sitting here trying to figure out what to get someone as a gift and i decide to go through the LJ a little and i read some entries and realized what i had and what i dont have, it was about a year ago today that me and you were really close and now today we are nothing, i refuse to talk to you, It was 2 years ago i met jen and things are better then ever, its been a little longer then 2 years that chanel and i have been friends and i guess you can say we are ok its been about 4 years that james and i have been friends and what can i say its james and i lol and it has even been 2 years that juliette and i have been friends- when i read the ljs i read how much time we were together almost every other weekend we would hang out and i just sat and thought for a min like houndred thoughts going through my mind but i guess one that really stood out is how did i let such a stupid thing make me go crazy like that i also saw how im barley friends with some of my old friends and what i would do just to be close with them again and things just started to fall into place for me and i wanted to say sorry for over reacting so much and for doing and saying some of the things i did 3. I saw the man i thought i would spent the rest of my life with last night and i felt nothing between us 4. Im seeing my favorite person in the world tonight like she is amazing and understand me so well....yah thats you Alex Some times it feels so good getting things out

(1 dicks |ate me) [06 Oct 2004|08:43pm] To think what I would do on the day I lose you My love, My soul, my heart is everything that would go with you I have nothing and I am nothing without you I never thought the day would come When I would have to say good-bye I never wanted to lose you Well the day did came I can’t believe it, I cant even explain it I’d cry myself to sleep each night Thinking I don’t have you to hold me tight Oh, how much I needed you I guess it is still hard to believe how I lost you You are still a phone call away But its not the same I used to walk down the street and there you would be waiting for me Now I need to take a car then a plane then a bus just to be with you I wish I could have helped you So you wouldn’t be so far away I wish we could go back in time To the days where we wouldn’t fight Now that we are friends again You are still very far from me Still a phone call away But not a block away I am waiting for you Take your time Get all the help you need And when you come back Please bring my love, my soul and my everything back So we can both be whole And never forget I will always love you

(4 dicks |ate me) [26 Sep 2004|01:11am] This past weekend i realized some different things but the one thing that stuck to me most is that i think almost every person has there number one best friend meaning someone they always called there bestfriend and always will, someone that they wanna die and grow old with, someone who they wanna be burried next too, someone who knows their lives backwards and foward also they both think this about each other its not one thinking it about the other and I realized i dont have that one person in my life, yah i have bestfriends who i love a lot but i see how all of them have that one other person and everyone of the people i call my bestfriend has that and i guess it really does bother me to think how i consider all that about someone but they consider it about someone else and not me it might sound selfish but its a feeling and it might sound like im jealous too so what, everyone is jealous about one thing or another, and i just had no where else to share it so i came to the lj it really helps to get emotions out On the other hand, as yom kippur came around i thought about all the things ive done and said to people, and i just wanna say sorry to the people i did wrong too

(9 dicks |ate me) fuck this shit [02 Aug 2004|06:06pm] I have not been HAPPY for a while now

(2 dicks |ate me) My night [25 Jul 2004|10:11am] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | Carless Whispers ] juliette came here we hung out got ready went to ww we had a nice dinner together, walked around a little her bf and two of his friends came we went to habibi with them and more people i didnt know sat there for about 45min then realized how uncomfterable i was sitting there with people i didnt know so i went and saw bob and rusty while juliette stayed was with them for about half hour then i still didnt want to go back so I went and sat in a corner alone sat there for about 15min did some thinking when i began to feel like a looser who has no friends i decided to call juliette waited 10min outside of habibi for her to come down she came down we got starbucks started walking to her car saw three people who juliette knew gave them a ride to hancock park came back to my house with juliette watched tv while juliette was on the computer sorta felt like watching a movie but we didnt instead we just slept Edit: It 60-40 you being the 60 and i think i win this time

(4 dicks |ate me) The Snshine State [20 Jul 2004|04:08pm] Being away made me realize how much I hate LA and the people here except for a few, The sunshine state is my place to be and cant be there, I guess that means depressed mode. The one thing i had is now gone too, I do not think Im read for all this, why cant I just be where I want to be. I wanna be back in the sunshine state You told me we are going to go there right out of high school and i laughed and said why would we do such a thing and now that ive goone and saw it all.......Me and You in the sunshine state is all I want

(1 dicks |ate me) [18 May 2004|09:01pm] The weekend was amazing And now the week sucks

(3 dicks |ate me) [12 May 2004|09:19pm] Happy Birthday Juliette Ge'tem Juliette hee hee

(5 dicks |ate me) [27 Apr 2004|07:57pm] On sunday it will be one year scince Juliette and i met, I think from the first day we met we both knew we were gnna be bestfriends forever love you

(1 dicks |ate me) [12 Apr 2004|02:09pm] You are really being annoying I get what your doing and YES it is pissing me off Now its not only 1 its 3 of you that are pissing me off Thanx Bye

(1 dicks |ate me) [04 Apr 2004|07:21pm] Last night was Jens it was sooo much fun, we danced the night away then talked the morning away pictures on juliettes LJ (Dont_ask_me)It was a lot of fun ho I got to see some old friends of mine! hee hee Line of the night said by Jen "I cant beilive I ever hooked up with you." Jen Judah-You are amazing! You speak ur mind so freely and i love that about you, we have been friends for a year and five months and i have loved ever day of it, even the bad ones hee hee Friends Forever, Happy birthday and Please get ur permit soon Lol Love you The night was amazing

(4 dicks |ate me) [19 Mar 2004|12:23pm] I hate him so much that I love him even more.

(3 dicks |ate me) [15 Mar 2004|09:49pm] Today was Chanels birthday, Happy Birthday Chanely I Love you so much and wish u the best ever, You are the sweetest person in the world and also my best friend hee hee You are amazing in every way, I love you now and forever! This weekend was her sweet 16 SO much fun, I went to her house early got ready we went to the place, got in a fight with him had an amazing night danced all night then went back to chanels with Malia jen and chanel we partied some more hee hee then in the morning malia left at 6 (yah we went to bed at like 3 im still wondering how she did it) jen left around 11 and chanel and i went to breakfast then i got picked up Last night i had a very intense conversation with him, and i think things are going to going well, at least i hope it will be going well Today i had a pretty fun day at school and i dont know why.....the high light of my day was when Torri got a love letter from a S.A it was amazing the teacher read it to the whole class, wow im laughing just talking about it. lol Good Weekend Good Day

(2 dicks |ate me) An Email I got [21 Feb 2004|07:28pm] Dear Friends, This past Saturday at midnight I received a telephone call from Cedar Sinai Hospital informing me that a young man named Jason, who was in critical care, desperately wanted to see his Rabbi. I went over to the hospital and found this beautiful, intelligent young man, whose parents and family I had just seen in synagogue that Shabbat morning, laying in critical care, filled with bruises and internal body injuries. Jason and his friend Elana were in a terrible car accident Saturday night. Jason is coherent, but in critical care and Elana, after having emergency brain surgery is now in a coma. They are both 16 years old. Jason was my bar mitzvah student for a year and in my confirmation class for 3 years. He is a brilliant and sensitive young man. I do not know Elana, but having met her family that Saturday night and having the opportunity of praying together with them, I know what a beautiful person she must be. I am asking every one of you to please take a brief moment every day and recite a prayer for Jason and Elana. They are young kids with hopefully their whole lives ahead of them. The power of community prayer is very effective and the knowledge that our whole community is praying for Jason and Elana will be very uplifting and reassuring for their parents and friends. Let us pray that God sends complete healing to Jason and Elana. Amen. Rabbi Daniel Bouskila P.S. Elana goes to BHHS/El Rodeo graduate

(2 dicks |ate me) [10 Feb 2004|10:10pm] Of all the nights we've stayed up and talked And told our secrets and dreams, Of all the days we've spent together We made the perfect team! But now it seems your different, Drifting away from me, And I don't want to lose you, Because it seems your all I need. Do you feel at all the same? Or do you even care? Will we ever have our late night talks? Do you remember the things I said to you? I loved when I was with you. We always thought the same. I loved when you finished my sentences... And I loved our made up games. I'll always remember what you promised me, That we'd ALWAYS be Best Friends. And you've never broken our promises, I miss you friend with all my heart, I want you to be here right now. But you'll always be in my heart, Because we're one... your part of me. My friendship lies in you... Only *Best Friends* hold the key.

(6 dicks |ate me) I finally wanted to turn to you.... [05 Feb 2004|10:40pm] Why is it when you need people the most they aren't there for you? Anyone know? I dont but I really want to figure it out.....   My cousins from austrilia left this morning....I wish i could have gone with them, getting away would be so perfect right now, its all i really want....This a picture of one of them, Danny (he is my favorite) He is only 6 and this was the first time I met him, and i love him!

(3 dicks |ate me) [31 Jan 2004|10:22pm] When you think everything is going perfect, stop thinking about it I thought everything was SO amazing And then I got annoyed of what I had I let it go It never came back Now it’s me on my hands and knees begging for him to come back We never had that one kiss but we had plenty of conversations that will never be forgotten Now that you’re gone I want to have a first kiss with you I want you to hold me and call me “your girl” Please tell me what I can do to just get that kiss To make my life more complete I need you back in it I don’t care what my friends think about you I don’t care what my brother thinks about you I don't care if you dont know how many smiles I have My heart tells me you’re perfect And if that is so….. Why is it so hard for us to just talk? Why is so hard for me to look you in the eye? Why is it that I miss you so much? And Why is it I am the one left crying?

(ate me) [29 Jan 2004|10:12pm] Today sucked Happy Birthday Jenna P

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